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Before it Comes Tum­bling Down Again

28 April 2014

Final moments of my break.

Today is the last day of my mid-sem break. Tech­ni­cal­ly it end­ed last week but I didn’t have uni today so I’ll con­sid­er today as a break too. I’ve fin­ished all assign­ments that need to be com­plet­ed but for some rea­son I feel like I’m still not free. Fin­ish­ing an assign­ment lit­er­al­ly felt like lift­ing a thou­sand bricks off my shoul­der but fin­ish­ing an assign­ment in uni makes you over­think a lot. It just feels like a real­ly, real­ly long open book exam. I real­ly don’t want to go to uni tomor­row. It actu­al­ly feels like post-HSC right now in spite of it only being 12 days since I’ve stepped into uni. That’s actu­al­ly a pret­ty long time. It’ll be nice to see peo­ple from uni again though. Since it was ANZAC day on Fri­day, most shops were closed so we head­ed to Sum’s place for hot pot that night.

I slept at 4:30 the pre­vi­ous night so I was basi­cal­ly a walk­ing zom­bie. I’ve been so sleep deprived late­ly and it’s not that I don’t have enough time to sleep, it’s because I actu­al­ly can’t fall asleep. I went to bed at 12:00 that night mean­ing it took me 4.5 hours to fall asleep. Please tell me this is some­how nor­mal. The weather’s been act­ing weird late­ly but at least we’re get­ting sprin­kles and show­ers some­times. Can’t wait for win­ter so it can final­ly be cold and I can turn on the heater in my room. The temperature’s at the awk­ward stage right now where it’s some­times too hot to wear a jack­et and too cold to not wear one. Also realised I’ve been splurg­ing a lot late­ly. Guilty!