This week has been one of, if not, the worst lows I have struggled through. Bad things kept unfolding non-stop, one after the other, whether it was something related to university or personal life. The level of turmoil I had and the amount of effort I needed to put into pushing myself to battle on has made me weary. It felt like a cloud blocking my mind and a weight dragging from my body. Despite purposely going to bed at 9 in the evening, I still felt tired and unmotivated and defeated throughout the next day. I haven’t felt so terrible in so long. My anxiety and stress levels peaked and left me feeling like I was being asphyxiated. I am glad, however, that those days are almost gone. Half gone.
It’s been a busy week and will continue to be busy until 15/11 which I am looking forward to. Today I had a court appearance assessment, which is basically a mock trial. I woke at 6:30, got there at 8:15 and waited until 12:20 for my case to begin. I do not understand how I waited for so long without doing anything apart from escaping the room for five minutes to go to the bathroom. The amount of people who were waiting outside the court rooms at first was so trapping, especially because today reached 36 degrees celsius and there was basically no air conditioning inside and everyone was close to each other. My assessment, however, went well. The magistrate said I did well so I can only assume I did a good job.