Only in Octo­ber

31 October 2015

A lit­tle recount of my Octo­ber 2015.

What a glo­ri­ous­ly daunt­ing month it’s been. It’s that tran­si­tion­al peri­od where the weath­er has big­ger mood swings than I do when I have hun­dreds of pages of read­ings and too lit­tle hours of sleep to take a suf­fi­cient gulp of air and keep myself alive, hence why I think I am actu­al­ly a corpse with sen­ti­ments. Where was I again? Right, the weath­er. Exact­ly how I remem­ber last year, there have been scat­tered peri­ods of rain and thun­der­storms late­ly but, of course, I am not com­plain­ing because most of you already know I am obsessed with all things gloom and mor­bid — prov­ing the above-men­tioned point about me being a corpse. It’s a way to calm myself down in the ever so stress­ful peri­od of try­ing to jug­gle a myr­i­ad activ­i­ties all at once and con­vinc­ing myself that the exams lurk­ing around the cor­ner aren’t going to that bad. Who am I kid­ding? It’s dur­ing the busiest days when I am forced to reach for the under­ly­ing pas­sion that moti­vates me and dri­ves my entire every­day func­tion­ing that reminds me why I do the things I do. It’s a sub­con­scious reminder of how impor­tant self-reas­sur­ance is.

Uni­ver­si­ty-relat­ed mat­ters aside *hun­dred tonne weight drops off shoul­der* this month has stretched my cre­ativ­i­ty to extents I’ve nev­er known exist­ed. I’ve been pre­sent­ed with so many [insert syn­onym for amaz­ing because I’ve been doing con­sti­tu­tion­al law read­ings all day and des­per­ate­ly need to catch some z’s] oppor­tu­ni­ties to shoot cam­paigns and style projects — one of which I will be post­ing very soon. It’s phe­nom­e­nal how the dark­est moments can often turn out to be the most pro­found­ly inspir­ing rev­e­la­tions in terms of self-dis­cov­ery and grow­ing emo­tion­al­ly (unfor­tu­nate­ly not phys­i­cal­ly; damn it, genes). Being com­fort­able has nev­er been some­thing I’ve aspired to achieve. Albeit sat­is­fy­ing to be able to one day be able to retire and reflect on all the things I’ve achieved in the past and be com­fort­able on a ham­mock in the mid­dle of an iso­lat­ed island some­where far away from all human pop­u­la­tion #goals, if there’s noth­ing to even reflect on in the first place because I’ve been so com­fort­able my entire life, what is the point? I might be a lit­tle ambi­tious but a sprin­kle of that nev­er ruined any­thing. I guess this is my sleep-deprived self try­ing to tell you all that even though an over­whelm­ing­ly lot of [poop emo­ji] has been hap­pen­ing in my life late­ly, I’m tak­ing every cat­a­stro­phe as a bless­ing in dis­guise, no mat­ter how dif­fi­cult it is to cat­e­gorise it as one.

So this is me sub­tly inform­ing you that in the month ahead I will be dash­ing to and from exam venues, sweat­ing over con­sti­tu­tion­al law, prop­er­ty law and legal jurispru­dence (although I think I will prob­a­bly be snor­ing by the time I reach the last one). May all things good and won­der­ful be with you — send­ing pos­i­tive vibes to you all, and myself because I need it. I also real­ly need sleep.

Some Suggestions

  • I too, am in the sleep deprived state that comes with exams. I can def­i­nite­ly iden­ti­fy with your point of view. Although, there has been a lot going on, I choose to treat it all, and I quote ” a bless­ing in dis­guise.”

  • Albert Wijaya

    Good luck for the exams and every­thing! Send­ing good vibes!!

    Best, Albert | Palm­ing Peb­bles
    Palm­ing Peb­bles FB

  • Gosh get some sleeeeeep! Also, pass­ing pos­i­tive vibes to you and a full sup­ply of mid­night oil 🙂

    Real Life Nerd //

  • I see these flaw­less images, so full of feel­ing and good­ness and sim­plic­i­ty, and then I read your words, of school and exams and law prac­tice. And hon­est­ly I don’t even know for sure why you’re just not a ful time pho­tog­ra­ph­er. I know per­son­al dreams and oth­er fac­tors come into play, but gosh I love your pho­to work.
    Here’s to being hap­py in a hec­tic Novem­ber. Hang in there!

  • Wow! What a Amaz­ing pho­tos. love it! (:

  • The weath­er might be all over the place but these images are fan­tas­tic and I love how you’ve cap­tured the mood per­fect­ly!

    Send­ing love from Syd­ney! Just fol­lowed on bloglovin 🙂

    I’ve just uploaded my video from the H&M Syd­ney Flag­ship store open­ing fea­tur­ing Solange Knowles as the guest DJ for the night and would love to hear your thoughts x

    Helen xx

  • Love your shots — that mar­ble lap­top espe­cial­ly.

    Mr Essen­tial­ist

  • Oh good­ness. I remem­ber the stress of hav­ing to read hun­dreds of pages of enor­mous text­books & always feel­ing behind. Hope­ful­ly you can get through it in one piece. :]

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  • Your blog is a won­der­ful com­bi­na­tion of orig­i­nal per­son­al expe­ri­ences, rel­a­tivis­ing deep­er thoughts, and good taste in struc­tur­ing pho­to­graph­ic shots. I like your min­i­mal­is­tic use of pre­dom­i­nant­ly black and white col­ors. Utter­ly refresh­ing in this blog­ging world…

  • And I adore your Apple 🙂

  • I’m real­ly hap­py I stub­bled upon your hon­est words, refresh­ing lay-out and beau­ti­ful serene pho­tos! I’ll be look­ing for­ward to see the results of the cam­paigns and project and I wish you all the luck with your stud­ies!
    ~ Marie